All I want to say is:

Ethandeez, I miss you.



And I am back to the airport..... It is quite a comfortable place to be actually, although it's going to be practically like moving in there next year, the festivities are probably the thing that is drawing me to Starbucks now.

One more thing, I hate my friends. Truly. They do a 3OH!3 and Don't Trust Me at all and never trust the ho (where I would automatically assume position of ho). I rest my case. Pat I know how you feel now.... I will never call you Pinocchio and Fight Picker and bully you into a state of confusion again no matter how much entertainment I derive from it.

Ok, tomorrow is cute chinese class bonding time, cant wait. I love Callisto HC a millz yes but I am slightly sick of dancing every waking second considering my lack of ability to move my body into motions akin to the seven others around me. Also, being tortured endlessly about the moon cycles every single day not my idea of best time spent.

Goodbye, mass media is influencing me too much for my own good. Gossip Girl, 90210, Grey's Anatomy, The Big Bang Theory, True Blood, Vampire Diaries. Yes, really. Also because I have too much time on my hands, basically.

Love
S
They don't really care about us.

Sleep will make me a better person. I hate being hormonal, it screws with me and my ability to make judgments. I dont like the decision I made today. Must learn how to prioritize things that are important to me, no matter what. Along with learning how to manage time and save up. If I meet someone who is better a procrastinator than me, I will fo shurr let you know.

(N), I am currently in a barnacle mood (!!!!!!!!!!!), I really dont like.
Pee, I really miss you, you idiot misanthropist.

Had avalanche of emotions this week, rollercoaster ttm. Every single day was new raw situations to handle, news after more news. Dont think had to ever handle so much information in such a short span ever. Dont think had to ever handle.



Callisto HC '09 is major.
When we cleared, that was it.

Love
S

Cos Tuesday came too soon
Wednesday left you feeling used
Oh, tomorrow you hope at least it's warm

Don't you want to live a simple life?
Anthem for the days.



Leave me to breathe. There's no space for breathing, a constant hold-your-breath-now-here-it-comes, I cannot take it anymore. Everything just about breaks my heart now. But constantly, its the girls in the toilet, the complete strangers who are sobbing alone or with their friends, hiding and talking about bleak, oh so very bleak futures. Do I look like I was crying? Do you want to stay a while longer? Here, let it all out. These exchanges, they simply break my heart.
This is not what it was supposed to look like. These years? These two years? They were supposed to be the best days of our life. Now, reduced to seeking refuge in the toilets. I guess the days came and went, never to return again.

Yesterday, I broke. My defense mechanism is what is keeping me together. I'm coping. I'm dealing with it. Dealing with everything. I've never had so many H2HTs in my life as I have this past couple of days. I dont think I've ever spoke with more severity as I have been lately.

S